Trying to stay a float.... That's exactly what I've been doing these last few weeks. I say weeks, but I think it's been months. I haven't had time to adjust to a lot of things that have changed in my life over the past few months....
Two of my boys started school in August. That may seem like a relief for a mom who has been home with 3 (and it is), but it also means more work in other areas. I'm now the mom who volunters, the mom who has to help with homework, make sure all of the school uniforms are clean and ironed, the mom who picks up the kids at 2:30, the mom who have to make sure there aren't any toys in book bags, the mom who has to find the missing hat that was left at school, the mom who have to make sure lunch money taken care of, etc... I know a lot of you already do that, but it's still new to me and just when I was adjusting, I became...
A sister who had to help a sister and nephew by taking them into her home. A sister who had to help her sister find a job. A sister that after finding said sister a job, is now babysitter to said sister's son (a 2yr old). Oh and did I mention that this sister can't drive? Therefore, I take her to work and EVERYWHERE else she have to go. So on top of being the mom mentioned above, I am now basically caregiver to two other people...
Why do I feel the need to tell you all of this? Because you guys have become a part of me. Every time I don't publish a post, or forget to do something on this blog, I think about you. Yeah I know that blogging is not that big of a deal to many of you, but for me, it's something that has brought me a lot of enjoyment. For me, it has brought me through some rough times in my life. For me, you guys are more than just "followers"... I've made really great friends through blogging.
I've shared with you before how I went through depression a few years back. And when you've been depressed like I've been depressed, its easy to have a set back. In my case, too much stress and being overwhelmed is what causes my depression. Right now, I am stressed. Right now I have too many things tugging at me. Right now, I have to take a step back and figure out how to get myself and my life in order. I have plenty of things that I "need/want" to share with you, but the things that are taking over my life won't allow that. By the time I'm done with the demands that are put on me, I'm exhausted. I'm exhausted and at the same time I feel like I'm short changing you (have you ever heard that phrase?). I feel like I'm not giving my all to my readers.
I have been given so many oppurtunities because of my blog. I have met so many people because of my blog. I have smiled, and laughed, and learned so much from blogging that I refuse to give it up. I do, however, have to step away for a while... I have to take time to get myself and my life together, I need time to get back on track. I need time to focus on my family. I need time to get back to blogging my true self.
I just need time to "BE" for awhile. Have you ever felt like that?
I'll be back soon...
Two of my boys started school in August. That may seem like a relief for a mom who has been home with 3 (and it is), but it also means more work in other areas. I'm now the mom who volunters, the mom who has to help with homework, make sure all of the school uniforms are clean and ironed, the mom who picks up the kids at 2:30, the mom who have to make sure there aren't any toys in book bags, the mom who has to find the missing hat that was left at school, the mom who have to make sure lunch money taken care of, etc... I know a lot of you already do that, but it's still new to me and just when I was adjusting, I became...
A sister who had to help a sister and nephew by taking them into her home. A sister who had to help her sister find a job. A sister that after finding said sister a job, is now babysitter to said sister's son (a 2yr old). Oh and did I mention that this sister can't drive? Therefore, I take her to work and EVERYWHERE else she have to go. So on top of being the mom mentioned above, I am now basically caregiver to two other people...
Why do I feel the need to tell you all of this? Because you guys have become a part of me. Every time I don't publish a post, or forget to do something on this blog, I think about you. Yeah I know that blogging is not that big of a deal to many of you, but for me, it's something that has brought me a lot of enjoyment. For me, it has brought me through some rough times in my life. For me, you guys are more than just "followers"... I've made really great friends through blogging.
I've shared with you before how I went through depression a few years back. And when you've been depressed like I've been depressed, its easy to have a set back. In my case, too much stress and being overwhelmed is what causes my depression. Right now, I am stressed. Right now I have too many things tugging at me. Right now, I have to take a step back and figure out how to get myself and my life in order. I have plenty of things that I "need/want" to share with you, but the things that are taking over my life won't allow that. By the time I'm done with the demands that are put on me, I'm exhausted. I'm exhausted and at the same time I feel like I'm short changing you (have you ever heard that phrase?). I feel like I'm not giving my all to my readers.
I have been given so many oppurtunities because of my blog. I have met so many people because of my blog. I have smiled, and laughed, and learned so much from blogging that I refuse to give it up. I do, however, have to step away for a while... I have to take time to get myself and my life together, I need time to get back on track. I need time to focus on my family. I need time to get back to blogging my true self.
I just need time to "BE" for awhile. Have you ever felt like that?
I'll be back soon...
